u n t i t l e d .

In a circle full cotton melodies and baked apple pies, I crave and hold a broken periphery of words like an extension of truth , a point of concave solitude. I rub my skin to discover, words unheard, unsaid. I rub my iris, and pinch myself black and blue like a fiction produced by swallowing, Catharsis. I sit, beneath a bower of insecurities to feel a surge of emotions and pour myself in blue ink.

I Think.
Think.
And Think.

Tap my pen and scratch my head to flow these letters and phrases out on sheets, but words just don’t seem to find their way out on paper anymore and my mind slips eachtime I ink something like a mother’s touch, to a place unknown.

So I try closing my pale eyes, like a water caltrop in ocean currents to put some relief on the manical themes, running in my head like a drop of wildfire. But nothing I do seems to help me anymore.

A bulk of emotions wash down through my throat, dive inside a feeling I dread the most, of not being able to pour, my inky thoughts on these dusty sheets and parchment soul.

tick.

tock.

tick.

tock.

tick.

The clocks keep spinning,obliviously. Seconds turn into minutes , minutes into hours and hours into days. Days? Yes. Yet all that my pen has done ever since is tap. I remember spewing a thousand emotions here but none in the form of words as of now I can find.

So, I keep staring at the paper pasted on my blank wall for hours instead, only to be horrified by what I read next “Poetry” in Frost words, “…is when an emotion has found its thought and that thought has found its words.”

Did it read words? Words that once held my hand and helped me cross the void in my soul? words that don’t belong to me anymore, or are these words I have failed to find my emotions into? I don’t know.

Drowning under the blankets of my own emotions, pondering if there was a way out of my mind , I just hope for angels to come down from heaven, pick my hand and help me write.

For I can’t live like this for long, tie my demons to a rocket and shoot them in space, I’m ready to burn alive with words still flowing through my soul in blue ink but not with my words being backspaced into a void, anymore.

// 06:42 am //


partially inspired by Devika Mathur

58 Comments Add yours

  1. Volpone24 says:

    โค

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  2. Kitty Jade says:

    You are so clever. This is brilliant.

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    1. SAUDADE says:

      Thank you ! :’)

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Kitty Jade says:

        I really mean it! Youโ€™re welcome ๐Ÿ˜‡

        Liked by 1 person

      2. SAUDADE says:

        Aww! Thatโ€™s really sweet of you. Thank you so much ! ๐Ÿ’™
        Happy blogging! ๐Ÿ˜Š

        Liked by 1 person

      3. Kitty Jade says:

        You are very welcome!

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    2. Bhavya says:

      Wow, you are mad talented. This is so beautiful, โค.

      Liked by 3 people

      1. SAUDADE says:

        Means a lot !
        Thank you ! :”) ๐Ÿ’™

        Like

      2. Bhavya says:

        Do check out my other posts as well! Thanks for reading and appreciating them. โค

        Liked by 1 person

      3. SAUDADE says:

        Sureee, I will ! ๐Ÿ’™
        I love the way you write.

        Keep blogging!
        ^_^

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  3. Mirage says:

    Truly beautiful โค

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    1. SAUDADE says:

      Thank you so much! ๐Ÿ’™
      Means a lot !

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      1. sherazade says:

        Scritto con grande sensibilitร  complimenti Non hai nulla di cui preoccuparti.

        Sherabbraccicari ๐ŸŒท

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      2. sherazade says:

        ๐Ÿ™ƒ๐ŸŒน

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      3. SAUDADE says:

        รจ davvero dolce da parte tua.
        Grazie mille per le gentili parole di apprezzamento.
        :”) โค

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      4. sherazade says:

        Solo la veritร  ๐Ÿ‘๐ŸŒท

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      5. SAUDADE says:

        ๐Ÿ’™ :’)

        Like

  4. Tarun Kumar says:

    Full of heart yaar, Full of heart,
    Really loved it,
    You amaze me all the time:)

    Liked by 1 person

    1. SAUDADE says:

      Thank you so much Tarun !
      Means a lot :’)

      Like

  5. Such a poignant expression of emotions! Loved it

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    1. SAUDADE says:

      I am glad you liked it !
      Thankyou for reading !
      Take care!

      ๐Ÿ’™ :’)

      Liked by 1 person

  6. Gorgeous post
    Such raw emotion..
    Love it

    Liked by 1 person

    1. SAUDADE says:

      Thanks a lot!
      Although, this is nothing compared to your work. ๐Ÿ’™

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Your words are beautiful
        Treasure them

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  7. Nat says:

    Beautiful, stunning piece! ๐Ÿ™‚

    Liked by 2 people

    1. SAUDADE says:

      Thank you very much ! ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’™

      Liked by 1 person

  8. This is so very beautiful! Thank You and Cheers!!! ๐Ÿ™‚

    Liked by 2 people

    1. SAUDADE says:

      Thank you, actually for sparing your valuable time and reading these tits -bits I write.
      Cheers! ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ˜Š

      Liked by 1 person

      1. My pleasure!!! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  9. Samyak Singh says:

    If this is wilderness of emotions, then Iโ€™m infatuated here. These write-ups resonate so well that I fear a writerโ€™s block someday๐Ÿ˜ƒ

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    1. SAUDADE says:

      Haha, that’s really sweet of you. I am glad my post could actually make someone think so deep. Thank you so much for the kind words of appreciation! Much appreciated ๐Ÿ™‚

      I love the way you write! ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’™

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      1. Samyak Singh says:

        Whatever lets us delve well into our thoughts is worth a read! Blown away๐Ÿคฉ
        Keep writing and stay connected๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š

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      2. SAUDADE says:

        Sure thing!
        Thank you ๐Ÿ˜Š๐ŸŒธ

        Liked by 1 person

  10. Thatโ€™s a pure expression of how the terrible block feels. Youโ€™re good with words.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. SAUDADE says:

      Thank you very much! ๐Ÿ˜Š

      Like

  11. Atul Depak says:

    Deep and thoughtful.๐ŸŒน

    Liked by 1 person

    1. SAUDADE says:

      Thank you ! ๐Ÿ˜Š

      Liked by 1 person

  12. Bhagyashree says:

    This is beautiful!๐Ÿ˜

    Liked by 1 person

    1. SAUDADE says:

      Thank you! ^_^ ๐Ÿ’™

      Liked by 1 person

  13. Holly G. says:

    Wow. This is absolutely spectacular writing. You have an incredible gift! What power comes through the ink on your pages! Brilliant. Please keep it up! โ™ฅ

    Liked by 1 person

    1. SAUDADE says:

      Wow, this means so much to me ! :”)
      Thank you very much for your kind words of appreciation!
      Keep blogging ! ๐Ÿ’™ ๐Ÿ˜Š

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Holly G. says:

        You are so very welcome โฃ It was heartfelt!

        Liked by 1 person

  14. Reblogged this on By the Mighty Mumford and commented:
    POETIC PROSE…PROBING PROBLEMS FACED!

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    1. SAUDADE says:

      Thank you so much for the reblog , Jonathan. ๐Ÿ’™

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Why, thank you kindly for introducing yourself! M3

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  15. Great writing. Loved it!

    Liked by 1 person

    1. SAUDADE says:

      I am glad you did, thank you! ๐Ÿ’™

      Like

  16. Susi Bocks says:

    Very well done, Saudade! I’ve nominated you for a Sunshine Blogger Award! ๐Ÿ™‚ https://iwriteher.com/2019/10/21/sunshine-blogger-award-3/

    Liked by 1 person

    1. SAUDADE says:

      Hey Susi, thank you so much for nominating me for this beautiful Blogger Award! Will be posting the answers to your questions on my blog super soon! :”)
      Stay connected! ๐Ÿ’™

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Susi Bocks says:

        You’re welcome! I’m looking forward to it! โค

        Liked by 1 person

  17. Beautiful piece of work!

    Liked by 1 person

    1. SAUDADE says:

      Thank you ๐Ÿ’™

      Like

  18. aruna3 says:

    Most emotional article๐ŸŒท

    Liked by 1 person

    1. SAUDADE says:

      ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’™

      Like

      1. aruna3 says:

        You are welcome๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒป๐ŸŒผ๐ŸŒท๐ŸŒน

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